Glenn opens up about fatherhood after attending the funeral of a friend's mother

The post below originally appeared on Glenn's Facebook page

I went to a funeral for a friend's mom today. I had only met her a couple of times and I only know a few members of the family. But my friend and his wife are two of the best people and Christians I know.

They love others and really care about me and my family.

I sat in the pew today and was overwhelmed with a few things. First, I found myself crying hard as the casket came in and we sang the first hymn. I didn't understand it right away and then it dawned on me.

We didn't have a funeral, wake or even a memorial for my father last year. He died, we left the hospital and that was it. (His wishes). He wanted to be cremated and his ashes scattered but his wife has them and she will not do it yet, nor do I think we would be invited. (Long and tragic story).

I hadn't really closed the door on my father yet. It hit me pretty hard. I then saw my friend and his wonderful family speak about their mother. She had a great and full life even if it was deeply painful. He is older than I. I wondered what it would be like to have a mother until you were my age or older.

I listened to the talks given. The lessons learned and how this one great lady held the family together and put their feet on the right path. They are who they are in many ways thanks to her strength and guidance. I respect and love my friend so much and much of it really is because of her.

Such joy and they are blessed because they know it and knew it long before her death.

My thoughts drifted to my family. My sisters and step brother. My grandparents on both sides. The dysfunction, the horrid memories, lost memories and tried to be lost memories. How far away from one another we are. How disconnected. How my childhood has shaped how I interact with them, my own children and even my friends.

How I have learned to "go it alone". Not to depend on anyone because "in the end, you can really only depend on you". Such lies. All of the missed opportunities, the missed joy, tears of laughter and how empty my fathers funeral would have been had he wanted one.

My pain grew to epic proportions. Not surprising I guess. I asked my son to sit on my lap. He helps me with my pain. As we held each other I thanked God for him and for a good woman, his mother, who will be remembered by him just as my friends mom was remembered today.

I whispered in his ear: "you are growing so fast, it won't be much longer that you will be able to sit on my lap." He whispered back as a ten year old twinkle in his eye beamed: "you should enjoy every second of it while you can.". I smiled back as I thought how true. Then I whispered: "you will have many more years yet ahead of you to miss this than I do. You should enjoy it as well."

He buried his face in my chest and squeezed me just a little bit tighter for a second.

Being a dad is a very hard thing. Being a human is hard enough. So many regrets that if you don't let go, will drag you down as they seem to get heavier as the years compile.

The atonement is needed every day. He forgives but until we forget, our acceptance of His gift isn't complete.

Though sometimes it seems by not knowing how to change ourselves we can't get past our past. I know that I want to laugh and play or even talk to my children about nothing, it is just that I honestly don't know how. How do you let a conversation just meander? I know this sounds silly, but after fifty years of "get to the point there is much to do", I am not good at meandering with family.

I envy those who are.

I am not my father, I am not the man I was ten, 15 or 20 years ago. I am a good father, just not always the one my children deserve. But I am getting better every year and honestly it is a two way street. We all have a lot to learn and we all play our own role.

Funerals begin to remind you that the years slip by quickly.

I began to think that Tania's parents are now the patriarch and matriarch of the family, then it will be us. What is it like when you are the old tree and everyone else is the acorn? What is it like when all of your childhood friends begin to die?

I am glad I have the Gospel.

Mormon funerals are really not sad. We really believe the gospel. We know our families will be together again. My friend knew there was a celebration of the family on the other side and God was weeping for us and not her.

She is in her Fathers arms once again and until I am there, I get to be here where my children are in their father's arms for just a little bit longer.

Amen and amen.

'The Fedcoin is HERE': Glenn Beck reveals what the Fed was up to while YOU weren’t watching

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While Americans were preparing for Thanksgiving last Wednesday afternoon, the Federal Reserve moved forward with its "Central Bank Digital Currency" program, and that wasn't the only controversial policy that was rolled out while you weren’t watching.

On the radio program, Glenn Beck reviewed the latest financial stories you may have missed over the holiday weekend, including how Biden's pause on student loan payments may be extended again and yet another sketchy Hunter Biden investment.

"You might have missed what happened Wednesday afternoon at the Fed," Glenn began. "They started their CBDC, Central Bank Digital Currency. Yes, the Fedcoin is here. Now they rolled it out on Wednesday — I mean, that was the only day they could do it, you know, because they've been denying that any of this stuff was happening. But they could only get it [launched] when no one was paying attention. So they rolled it out, and it's in its beta test now."

"By the way, India just rolled out its retail pilot program for digital rupees as well. But don't worry," he continued. "Maybe we should start having the conversation of, 'Gosh, this looks like the mark of the beast.' I mean, doesn't it? But surely it's not. Of course not. Not from the U.S. government. They never do anything underhanded or evil. Never."

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BIGGER than Tiananmen Square? Here's what the China protests are REALLY about

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China has been locking its citizens down for over two years under its zero-COVID policy, and it's becoming more and more clear that this isn’t just about COVID but something much more serious: slavery and control. Now it looks like many citizens have had enough. Protests are currently spreading throughout China and, unlike during the Tiananmen Square protests, the word is getting out.

On Monday's radio program, Glenn Beck looked into the protests' "real motivations," explained how they’re different from the 1989 protests at Tiananmen Square, and predicted how these events are a "game-changer for the entire world."

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The American Journey Experience is the new home of the car Orson Welles gave to Rita Hayworth. Orson Welles gave this car to his future wife Rita Hayworth for her 24th birthday.

George Orson Welles was an American actor, director, producer, and screenwriter who is remembered for his innovative and influential work in film, radio and theatre. He is considered to be among the greatest and most influential filmmakers of all time and his work has had a great impact on American culture.

Every year as Thanksgiving approaches, the fear of politics being brought up at the dinner table is shared by millions around the country. But comedian Jamie Kilstein has a guide for what you should do to avoid the awkward political turmoil so you can enjoy stuffing your face full of turkey.

Kilstein joined "The Glenn Beck Program" to dissect exactly how you can handle those awkward, news-related discussions around the table on Thanksgiving and provided his 3-step guide to help you survive the holidays with your favorite, liberal relatives: Find common ground, don’t take obvious bait, and remember that winning an argument at the cost of a family member won’t fix the issue you’re arguing about.

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