Glenn opens up about fatherhood after attending the funeral of a friend's mother

The post below originally appeared on Glenn's Facebook page

I went to a funeral for a friend's mom today. I had only met her a couple of times and I only know a few members of the family. But my friend and his wife are two of the best people and Christians I know.

They love others and really care about me and my family.

I sat in the pew today and was overwhelmed with a few things. First, I found myself crying hard as the casket came in and we sang the first hymn. I didn't understand it right away and then it dawned on me.

We didn't have a funeral, wake or even a memorial for my father last year. He died, we left the hospital and that was it. (His wishes). He wanted to be cremated and his ashes scattered but his wife has them and she will not do it yet, nor do I think we would be invited. (Long and tragic story).

I hadn't really closed the door on my father yet. It hit me pretty hard. I then saw my friend and his wonderful family speak about their mother. She had a great and full life even if it was deeply painful. He is older than I. I wondered what it would be like to have a mother until you were my age or older.

I listened to the talks given. The lessons learned and how this one great lady held the family together and put their feet on the right path. They are who they are in many ways thanks to her strength and guidance. I respect and love my friend so much and much of it really is because of her.

Such joy and they are blessed because they know it and knew it long before her death.

My thoughts drifted to my family. My sisters and step brother. My grandparents on both sides. The dysfunction, the horrid memories, lost memories and tried to be lost memories. How far away from one another we are. How disconnected. How my childhood has shaped how I interact with them, my own children and even my friends.

How I have learned to "go it alone". Not to depend on anyone because "in the end, you can really only depend on you". Such lies. All of the missed opportunities, the missed joy, tears of laughter and how empty my fathers funeral would have been had he wanted one.

My pain grew to epic proportions. Not surprising I guess. I asked my son to sit on my lap. He helps me with my pain. As we held each other I thanked God for him and for a good woman, his mother, who will be remembered by him just as my friends mom was remembered today.

I whispered in his ear: "you are growing so fast, it won't be much longer that you will be able to sit on my lap." He whispered back as a ten year old twinkle in his eye beamed: "you should enjoy every second of it while you can.". I smiled back as I thought how true. Then I whispered: "you will have many more years yet ahead of you to miss this than I do. You should enjoy it as well."

He buried his face in my chest and squeezed me just a little bit tighter for a second.

Being a dad is a very hard thing. Being a human is hard enough. So many regrets that if you don't let go, will drag you down as they seem to get heavier as the years compile.

The atonement is needed every day. He forgives but until we forget, our acceptance of His gift isn't complete.

Though sometimes it seems by not knowing how to change ourselves we can't get past our past. I know that I want to laugh and play or even talk to my children about nothing, it is just that I honestly don't know how. How do you let a conversation just meander? I know this sounds silly, but after fifty years of "get to the point there is much to do", I am not good at meandering with family.

I envy those who are.

I am not my father, I am not the man I was ten, 15 or 20 years ago. I am a good father, just not always the one my children deserve. But I am getting better every year and honestly it is a two way street. We all have a lot to learn and we all play our own role.

Funerals begin to remind you that the years slip by quickly.

I began to think that Tania's parents are now the patriarch and matriarch of the family, then it will be us. What is it like when you are the old tree and everyone else is the acorn? What is it like when all of your childhood friends begin to die?

I am glad I have the Gospel.

Mormon funerals are really not sad. We really believe the gospel. We know our families will be together again. My friend knew there was a celebration of the family on the other side and God was weeping for us and not her.

She is in her Fathers arms once again and until I am there, I get to be here where my children are in their father's arms for just a little bit longer.

Amen and amen.

Time after time, Americans have taken to the streets to defend our constitutional rights, whether it was our livelihood at stake -- or our lives. But, what was the point of all the civil rights movements that came before, if we're about to let the government take our rights away now?

On his Wednesday night special, Glenn Beck argued that Americans are tired of having our rights trampled by "tyrannical" leaders from state and local governments who are ignoring our unalienable rights during this pandemic.

"Our nanny state has gone too far. The men and women in office -- the ones closest to our communities, our towns, our cities -- are now taking advantage of our fear," Glenn said. "Like our brothers and sisters of the past, we need to start making the decisions that will put our destiny, and our children's destiny, back into our hands."

It took less than two months of the coronavirus tyranny to make America unrecognizable, but some Americans are fighting back, risking losing their jobs and businesses or even jail time, as they battle to take back our civil rights.

Here are just a few of their stories:

After New Jersey's Atilis Gym reopened in defiance of the governor's executive order, the Department of Health shut them down for "posing a threat to the public health." Co-owner Ian Smith says somebody sabotaged the gym's toilets with enire rolls of paper to create the public health "threat."

Oregon Salon owner, Lindsey Graham, was fined $14 thousand for reopening. She said she was visited by numerous government organizations, including Child Protective Services, in what she believes are bullying tactics straight from the governor's office.

77-year-old Michigan barber, Karl Manke, refused to close his shop even when facing arrest. "I couldn't go another 30 days without an income," he said. But when local police refused to arrest him, Gov. Gretchen Whitmer's (D) office suspending his business license instead.

Port of Seattle police officer Greg Anderson was suspended after he spoke out against enforcing what he called "tyrannical orders" imposed amid coronavirus lockdowns.

Kentucky mother-of-seven, Mary Sabbatino, found herself under investigation for alleged child abuse after breaking social distancing rules at a bank. After a social worker from child protective services determined there was no sign of abuse, he still sought to investigate why the Sabbatino's are homeschooling, and how they can give "adequate attention to that many children."

Dallas salon owner Shelley Luther was sentenced to seven days in jail after she defied the state-mandated stay-at-home orders to reopen her business.

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It took less than two months of the coronavirus tyranny to make America unrecognizable. Leaders from state and local governments across the U.S. have flattened the curve of some of our most basic constitutional rights, but some Americans are fighting back — and risking jail time or losing their businesses.

On Wednesday night's GBTV special, Glenn Beck argued that we're witnessing the birth of a new civil rights movement — and it's time to build a coalition of common sense to keep America as we know it free.

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On the radio program Thursday, Glenn Beck sat down with chief researcher Jason Buttrill to go over two bombshell developments that have recently come to light regarding former Vice President Joe Biden's role in the 2016 dismissal of Ukrainian Prosecutor General Viktor Shokin.

"Wow! Two huge stories dropped within about 24 hours of each other," Jason began. He went on to explain that a court ruling in Ukraine has just prompted an "actual criminal investigation against Joe Biden in Ukraine."

This stunning development coincided with the release of leaked phone conversations, which took place in late 2015 and early 2016, allegedly among then-Vice President Biden, Secretary of State John Kerry, and Ukraine's former President Petro Poroshenko.

One of the audiotapes seems to confirm allegations of a quid pro quo between Biden and Poroshenko, with the later admitting that he asked Shokin to resign despite having no evidence of him "doing anything wrong" in exchange for a $1 billion loan guarantee.

"Poroshenko said, 'despite the fact that we didn't have any corruption charges on [Shokin], and we don't have any information about him doing something wrong, I asked him to resign,'" Jason explained. "But none of the Western media is pointing this out."

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A recently declassified email, written by former National Security Adviser Susan Rice and sent herself on the day of President Donald Trump's inauguration, reveals the players involved in the origins of the Trump-Russia probe and "unmasking" of then-incoming National Security Adviser, Gen. Michael Flynn.

Rice's email details a meeting in the Oval Office on Jan 5, 2017, which included herself, former FBI Director James Comey, former Deputy Attorney General Sally Yates, former Vice President Joe Biden, and former President Barack Obama. Acting Director of National Intelligence, Richard Grenell, fully declassified the email recently amid President Trump's repeated references to "Obamagate" and claims that Obama "used his last weeks in office to target incoming officials and sabotage the new administration."

On Glenn Beck's Wednesday night special, Glenn broke down the details of Rice's email and discussed what they reveal about the Obama administration officials involved in the Russia investigation's origins.

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