Glenn opens up about fatherhood after attending the funeral of a friend's mother

The post below originally appeared on Glenn's Facebook page

I went to a funeral for a friend's mom today. I had only met her a couple of times and I only know a few members of the family. But my friend and his wife are two of the best people and Christians I know.

They love others and really care about me and my family.

I sat in the pew today and was overwhelmed with a few things. First, I found myself crying hard as the casket came in and we sang the first hymn. I didn't understand it right away and then it dawned on me.

We didn't have a funeral, wake or even a memorial for my father last year. He died, we left the hospital and that was it. (His wishes). He wanted to be cremated and his ashes scattered but his wife has them and she will not do it yet, nor do I think we would be invited. (Long and tragic story).

I hadn't really closed the door on my father yet. It hit me pretty hard. I then saw my friend and his wonderful family speak about their mother. She had a great and full life even if it was deeply painful. He is older than I. I wondered what it would be like to have a mother until you were my age or older.

I listened to the talks given. The lessons learned and how this one great lady held the family together and put their feet on the right path. They are who they are in many ways thanks to her strength and guidance. I respect and love my friend so much and much of it really is because of her.

Such joy and they are blessed because they know it and knew it long before her death.

My thoughts drifted to my family. My sisters and step brother. My grandparents on both sides. The dysfunction, the horrid memories, lost memories and tried to be lost memories. How far away from one another we are. How disconnected. How my childhood has shaped how I interact with them, my own children and even my friends.

How I have learned to "go it alone". Not to depend on anyone because "in the end, you can really only depend on you". Such lies. All of the missed opportunities, the missed joy, tears of laughter and how empty my fathers funeral would have been had he wanted one.

My pain grew to epic proportions. Not surprising I guess. I asked my son to sit on my lap. He helps me with my pain. As we held each other I thanked God for him and for a good woman, his mother, who will be remembered by him just as my friends mom was remembered today.

I whispered in his ear: "you are growing so fast, it won't be much longer that you will be able to sit on my lap." He whispered back as a ten year old twinkle in his eye beamed: "you should enjoy every second of it while you can.". I smiled back as I thought how true. Then I whispered: "you will have many more years yet ahead of you to miss this than I do. You should enjoy it as well."

He buried his face in my chest and squeezed me just a little bit tighter for a second.

Being a dad is a very hard thing. Being a human is hard enough. So many regrets that if you don't let go, will drag you down as they seem to get heavier as the years compile.

The atonement is needed every day. He forgives but until we forget, our acceptance of His gift isn't complete.

Though sometimes it seems by not knowing how to change ourselves we can't get past our past. I know that I want to laugh and play or even talk to my children about nothing, it is just that I honestly don't know how. How do you let a conversation just meander? I know this sounds silly, but after fifty years of "get to the point there is much to do", I am not good at meandering with family.

I envy those who are.

I am not my father, I am not the man I was ten, 15 or 20 years ago. I am a good father, just not always the one my children deserve. But I am getting better every year and honestly it is a two way street. We all have a lot to learn and we all play our own role.

Funerals begin to remind you that the years slip by quickly.

I began to think that Tania's parents are now the patriarch and matriarch of the family, then it will be us. What is it like when you are the old tree and everyone else is the acorn? What is it like when all of your childhood friends begin to die?

I am glad I have the Gospel.

Mormon funerals are really not sad. We really believe the gospel. We know our families will be together again. My friend knew there was a celebration of the family on the other side and God was weeping for us and not her.

She is in her Fathers arms once again and until I am there, I get to be here where my children are in their father's arms for just a little bit longer.

Amen and amen.

Earlier this year, Coca-Cola became the poster child for how a corporation could shove leftist ideologies onto its consumers. The company suspended advertising on Facebook in a push to censor former President Donald Trump, published a manifesto about racial equity, and demanded all legal teams working for Coke meet certain diversity quotas.

But now, after Trump, Sen. Ted Cruz (R-Tx.), Sen. Rand Paul (R-Ky.), and many other conservative voices called for a boycott of the company's products, Coca-Cola appears to be shifting directions.

The Washington Examiner reported that the company issued a conciliatory statement after conspicuously failing to appear on a published list of hundreds of corporations and individuals that signed a statement denouncing the Georgia voting bill.

"We believe the best way to make progress now is for everyone to come together and listen respectfully, share concerns, and collaborate on a path forward. We remained open and productive conversations with advocacy groups and lawmakers who may have differing views," the company said. "It's time to find common ground. In the end, we all want the same thing – free and fair elections, the cornerstone of our democracy."

Then last week, Coca-Cola Co.'s new general counsel, Monica Howard Douglas, told members of the company's global legal team that the diversity initiative announced by her predecessor, Bradley Gayton, is "taking a pause for now." Gayton resigned unexpectedly from the position on April 21, after only eight months on the job, to serve as a strategic consultant to Chairman and CEO James Quincey.

"Why is Coca-Cola 'taking a pause' on all of these? Because you have been standing up," Glenn Beck said on the radio program Monday. "You and others have been standing up. Your voice, it's the power of one. Your voice makes a difference."

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This week on "The Glenn Beck Podcast," civil rights activist and Woodson Center founder Bob Woodson joined Glenn to call out the leftists in the "race grievance industry," like the Rev. Al Sharpton and Black Lives Matter, Inc., who, he says, are "profiting off the misery of their people."

Woodson lived through the appalling segregation laws of the last century and has a much different message about what it means to be "oppressed" than the so-called "anti-racist" activists today.

Woodson said he believes the real struggle for impoverished minority communities "is not racial." He argued that leftists "at the top" derive "moral authority" by claiming to represent "so called marginalized groups," while they prosper at the expense of those "at the bottom."

"There's nothing worse than self-flagellating guilty white people and rich, angry black people who profit off the misery of their people," Woodson said.

"I call what Sharpton and some of those are doing is worse than bigotry. It's treason. It's moral treason against their own people," he added. "The only time you hear from them is when a white police officer kills a black person, which happens maybe 20 or 21 times a year, but 6,000 blacks are killed each year by other blacks. So, in other words, their message is black lives only matter when taken by someone white, which means you are betraying the black community when you turn your back on 20 children that are slaughtered and you don't march in that community and demand that those killers be turned over to the police."

'The problem is not racial," Woodson asserted. "The problem is the challenge of upward mobility. Any time you generalize about a group of people, blacks, whites, Native American, and then you try to apply remedies, it always benefits those at the top at the expense of those at the bottom. ... It's a bait and switch game where you're using the demographics of the worst of these, to get resources that helps the best of these, or those who are prospering at the top. So, if I was the president, I would say an end to the race grievance business, that America should concentrate on the moral and spiritual free fall that is consuming people at the bottom."

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Following President Joe Biden's first joint address to Congress, Glenn Beck joined fellow BlazeTV host and author of the new book, "American Marxism," Mark Levin to expose what they called the "Liar-In-Chief's" radical plans for our country and to explain why the far Left's proposals and programs are really a "frontal attack" on our Constitution, our country, and our way of life.

"Substantively, this is a frontal attack on our Constitutional system of limited government. It is a frontal attack on our capitalist system. He's basically throwing out all the bromides for the radical left groups that now form the base of the modern Democrat Party. And I make the case that ... this is Marxist bullcrap in its broadest sense," Levin stated.

"Here we are, a country now where one man can get up in the middle of the night and make a list of everything he wants to do to the country," he added, speaking figuratively. "It's like an unreality where we're living in separate worlds ... the whole thing is a fraud."

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After months of delays and COVID-19 excuses, President Biden finally delivers his address to the joint session of Congress. It is a truly historic moment, as only a few hundred members of Congress received an invite. While some have compared this speech to JFK's moon landing challenge, it will likely be more like FDR's New Deal nightmare. Will Speaker Pelosi continue her tradition of ripping up the president's speech? Will VP Harris cackle to a quiet audience?

Glenn Beck teams up with fellow BlazeTV host Mark Levin, author of the new book "American Marxism," to take on the progressive plans that could completely transform our economy and our way of life. Steve Deace, BlazeTV host and author of "Faucian Bargain," joins to discuss why it's not enough for conservatives to just lament the dangerous Democrat agenda; we must activate against the woke infection of our institutions. Plus, a power panel to rival CNN talking heads: Stu Burguiere, BlazeTV host of "Stu Does America," and Jason Buttrill, head researcher and writer for Glenn Beck.

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