Glenn opens up about fatherhood after attending the funeral of a friend's mother

The post below originally appeared on Glenn's Facebook page

I went to a funeral for a friend's mom today. I had only met her a couple of times and I only know a few members of the family. But my friend and his wife are two of the best people and Christians I know.

They love others and really care about me and my family.

I sat in the pew today and was overwhelmed with a few things. First, I found myself crying hard as the casket came in and we sang the first hymn. I didn't understand it right away and then it dawned on me.

We didn't have a funeral, wake or even a memorial for my father last year. He died, we left the hospital and that was it. (His wishes). He wanted to be cremated and his ashes scattered but his wife has them and she will not do it yet, nor do I think we would be invited. (Long and tragic story).

I hadn't really closed the door on my father yet. It hit me pretty hard. I then saw my friend and his wonderful family speak about their mother. She had a great and full life even if it was deeply painful. He is older than I. I wondered what it would be like to have a mother until you were my age or older.

I listened to the talks given. The lessons learned and how this one great lady held the family together and put their feet on the right path. They are who they are in many ways thanks to her strength and guidance. I respect and love my friend so much and much of it really is because of her.

Such joy and they are blessed because they know it and knew it long before her death.

My thoughts drifted to my family. My sisters and step brother. My grandparents on both sides. The dysfunction, the horrid memories, lost memories and tried to be lost memories. How far away from one another we are. How disconnected. How my childhood has shaped how I interact with them, my own children and even my friends.

How I have learned to "go it alone". Not to depend on anyone because "in the end, you can really only depend on you". Such lies. All of the missed opportunities, the missed joy, tears of laughter and how empty my fathers funeral would have been had he wanted one.

My pain grew to epic proportions. Not surprising I guess. I asked my son to sit on my lap. He helps me with my pain. As we held each other I thanked God for him and for a good woman, his mother, who will be remembered by him just as my friends mom was remembered today.

I whispered in his ear: "you are growing so fast, it won't be much longer that you will be able to sit on my lap." He whispered back as a ten year old twinkle in his eye beamed: "you should enjoy every second of it while you can.". I smiled back as I thought how true. Then I whispered: "you will have many more years yet ahead of you to miss this than I do. You should enjoy it as well."

He buried his face in my chest and squeezed me just a little bit tighter for a second.

Being a dad is a very hard thing. Being a human is hard enough. So many regrets that if you don't let go, will drag you down as they seem to get heavier as the years compile.

The atonement is needed every day. He forgives but until we forget, our acceptance of His gift isn't complete.

Though sometimes it seems by not knowing how to change ourselves we can't get past our past. I know that I want to laugh and play or even talk to my children about nothing, it is just that I honestly don't know how. How do you let a conversation just meander? I know this sounds silly, but after fifty years of "get to the point there is much to do", I am not good at meandering with family.

I envy those who are.

I am not my father, I am not the man I was ten, 15 or 20 years ago. I am a good father, just not always the one my children deserve. But I am getting better every year and honestly it is a two way street. We all have a lot to learn and we all play our own role.

Funerals begin to remind you that the years slip by quickly.

I began to think that Tania's parents are now the patriarch and matriarch of the family, then it will be us. What is it like when you are the old tree and everyone else is the acorn? What is it like when all of your childhood friends begin to die?

I am glad I have the Gospel.

Mormon funerals are really not sad. We really believe the gospel. We know our families will be together again. My friend knew there was a celebration of the family on the other side and God was weeping for us and not her.

She is in her Fathers arms once again and until I am there, I get to be here where my children are in their father's arms for just a little bit longer.

Amen and amen.

Terry Trobiani owns Gianelli's Drive Thru in Prairie Grove, Illinois, where he put up a row of American flags for the Fourth of July. But the city claimed he was displaying two of them improperly and issued him a $100 ticket for each flag.

Terry joined Glenn Beck on the radio program Tuesday to explain what he believes really happened. He told Glenn that, according to city ordinance, the American flag is considered "ornamental" and should therefore have been permitted on a federal holiday. But the city has now classified the flag as a "sign."

"Apparently, the village of Prairie Grove has classified the American flag as a sign and they've taken away the symbol of the American flag," Terry said. "So, as a sign, it falls under their temporary sign ordinance, which prohibits any flying, or any positioning of signs on your property — and now this includes the American flag. [...] The only way I could fly the American flag on my property is if I put it on a permanent 20 to 30-foot flagpole, which they have to permit."

Terry went on to explain how the city is now demanding an apology for his actions, and all after more than a year of small-business crushing COVID restrictions and government mandates.

"COVID was tough," Terry stated. "You know, we're in the restaurant business. COVID was tough on us. We succeeded. We made it through. We cut a lot of things, but we never cut an employee. We paid all our employees. I didn't take a paycheck for a year just to keep our employees on, because it was that important to me to keep things going. And, you know, you fight for a year, and you beat a pandemic, and then you have this little municipality with five trustees and a president, who just have no respect for small businesses. And right now, what I see is they have no respect for the republic and the United States ... I think it's terrible. The direction that government, at all levels, have taken us to this point, it's despicable."

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The Biden administration is now doing everything it can to censor what it has decided is COVID-19 "misinformation." But Glenn Beck isn't confident that the silencing of voices will stop there.

Yeonmi Park grew up in North Korea, where there is no freedom of speech, and she joined Glenn to warn that America must not let this freedom go.

"Whenever authoritarianism rises, the first thing they go after is freedom of speech," she said.

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Most self-proclaimed Marxists know very little about Marxism. Some of them have all the buzzwords memorized. They talk about the exploits of labor. They talk about the slavery of capitalist society and the alienation caused by capital. They talk about the evils of power and domination.

But they don't actually believe what they say. Or else they wouldn't be such violent hypocrites. And we're not being dramatic when we say "violent."

For them, Marxism is a political tool that they use to degrade and annoy their political enemies.

They don't actually care about the working class.

Another important thing to remember about Marxists is that they talk about how they want to defend the working class, but they don't actually understand the working class. They definitely don't realize that the working class is composed mostly of so many of the people they hate. Because, here's the thing, they don't actually care about the working class. Or the middle class. They wouldn't have the slightest clue how to actually work, not the way we do. For them, work involves ranting about how work and labor are evil.

Ironically, if their communist utopia actually arrived, they would be the first ones against the wall. Because they have nothing to offer except dissent. They have no practical use and no real connection to reality.

Again ironically, they are the ultimate proof of the success of capitalism. The fact that they can freely call for its demise, in tweets that they send from their capitalistic iPhones, is proof that capitalism affords them tremendous luxuries.

Their specialty is complaining. They are fanatics of a religion that is endlessly cynical.

They sneer at Christianity for promising Heaven in exchange for good deeds on earth — which is a terrible description of Christianity, but it's what they actually believe — and at the same time they criticize Christianity for promising a utopia, they give their unconditional devotion to a religion that promises a utopia.

They are fanatics of a religion that is endlessly cynical.

They think capitalism has turned us into machines. Which is a bad interpretation of Marx's concept of the General Intellect, the idea that humans are the ones who create machines, so humans, not God, are the creators.

They think that the only way to achieve the perfect society is by radically changing and even destroying the current society. It's what they mean when they say things about the "status quo" and "hegemony" and the "established order." They believe that the system is broken and the way to fix it is to destroy, destroy, destroy.

Critical race theory actually takes it a step farther. It tells us that the racist system can never be changed. That racism is the original sin that white people can never overcome. Of course, critical race theorists suggest "alternative institutions," but these "alternative institutions" are basically the same as the ones we have now, only less effective and actually racist.

Marx's violent revolution never happened. Or at least it never succeeded. Marx's followers have had to take a different approach. And now, we are living through the Revolution of Constant Whining.

This post is part of a series on critical race theory. Read the full series here.

Americans are losing faith in our justice system and the idea that legal consequences are applied equally — even to powerful elites in office.

Rep. Devin Nunes (R-CA) joined Glenn Beck on the radio program to detail what he believes will come next with the Durham investigation, which hopefully will provide answers to the Obama FBI's alleged attempts to sabotage former President Donald Trump and his campaign years ago.

Rep. Nunes and Glenn assert that we know Trump did NOT collude with Russia, and that several members of the FBI possibly committed huge abuses of power. So, when will we see justice?

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