I have the greatest wife and family ever.
Family is not something I ever wanted. My family was broken and I didn't see the value.
How wrong I was.
Mary, my eldest, was admitted this morning during the radio show into the hospital. I got the call minutes before air time. At first, we didn't know what was happening. Her sister took her to the hospital ER to be checked out. Tania left work and I put my staff on standby that I may be leaving as well.
Just as the show was ending, I got word that she was stable but they didn't know what was wrong with her, it could be many things and worse case, she may have had another stroke.
My heart sank and I rushed to the hospital. We waited for results all day, she was in and out. At times perfectly normal, at other times confused, headache, double vision and slurred speech.
By six pm, the results were in, she hadn't had any strokes, her blood tests were all checking out and the doctors really had no idea.
Good news and frustrating.
Thank God for American medicine. I have hope that they will find it.
Tomorrow will be a good day. As I gave her a father's blessing I was filled with the knowledge that she will be fine and this too shall pass.
Tania has been so busy and so tired, but as I took the kids home to eat and finish their homework Tania remained to sit with Mary, care for her, love her and rub her feet.
I thought of my step mother. It wouldn't have been the same when I was a child.
It hurts to say it out loud, but it wouldn't have.
I watched Tania today and thought of my childhood. It broke my heart for the missed opportunities and at the same time it gave me joy to think about my children's future.
It is hard to be a step-parent for some I think. It isn't hard for Tania. When times get tough, she is a mom.
As I watched her with the two younger kids walk down the hall of the hospital arm in arm late this afternoon, my heart was filled with joy.
A big family that really loves one another is all she has ever wanted. She has created it and all of us reap the blessings.
There is nothing better than children. They are the best of life and give us meaning and purpose.
But to have your children at your side without an amazing spouse in the middle of it all was all I have ever known, even in childhood. It isn't the same. Because it was all that I had known, I hadn't wanted a family.
A strong marriage to a great man or woman who truly is your partner, has the family as their center and, frankly, is a better person than you are makes life worth living and the eternities worth looking forward to.
I love you Mary, Hannah, Tim, Raphe and Cheyenne. You are great siblings.
Tania you are the best any man and child could hope for and Lorelai and (soon) baby Coen, you are blessed to be around so much love.
May it be all that you remember your family for.
I am a blessed man. Thank you, Lord, for second chances.