GLENN: 888-727-BECK. 888-727-BECK. Welcome to the program. I'm glad you're here. I want to introduce you to somebody. This is Jessica. She's from South Carolina. Hello, Jessica, how are you?
CALLER: I'm good, Glenn, how are you today?
GLENN: Thank you so much for listening to the program. You just sent me a letter. I had a couple of tickets left for tonight's performance here in South Carolina in the live house and I told people to write in and tell me why they really wanted to be here, and do you mind telling me your story, what you wrote to me?
CALLER: Sure. About two years ago, well, actually it was about three years ago I called my dad and told him I was pregnant and he looked at me, he said on the phone, he says, why would you want to do something like that. And it really broke my heart. And what I didn't put in the letter was that pregnancy ended in a miscarriage and about a month and a half later I got pregnant again. And a few months later -- my dad was a very heavy man and I'm not the thinnest of all individuals, but he and I got into an argument about him making fun of me for my weight while I was pregnant. And about six months before that, my sister was pregnant and all he did was gush about how beautiful pregnant women were and how beautiful my sister was and that's really all I wanted to hear from him was that I was beautiful, too. And it was over Mother's Day weekend and I was at my sister's house and he had made some comments about me being fat and a lardo, and I got really upset with him and we ended up fighting over it. And about a month later my mom was like, why don't you reconcile with him and I was like, Mom, I'm too hurt, I can't. And then I realized in my heart I needed to forgive him, but I never reconciled with him. And the middle of July that year, I was about 7 1/2, almost 8 months pregnant, he went in to have gastric bypass surgery and he made it through the surgery okay.
GLENN: So he was a very heavy man himself?
CALLER: Yes, sir. He was about 5' 6" and 300 pounds.
CALLER: And I'm 5' 11" and I was seven months pregnant at 220 pounds. So I was -- I'm a big girl but I'm not that big, especially 6 1/2, 7 months pregnant.
CALLER: But he didn't make it through -- he made it through the gastric bypass surgery but he had some complications. He was a smoker and didn't quite listen to the doctor and he had some complications and he was the kind of man that you never knew if he was really joking with you or he was serious and so it was hard to take what he was saying seriously. Well, once he got to the hospital, he went into a coma after they did some repair on the surgery, and I got to him about ten hours before he passed away. And when I walked in the door -- I mean, I was very upset because my mom kept telling me, don't come, don't come, don't come. Because I was in a high-risk pregnancy, I was preeclampsic and high blood pressure and the doctor was like, only travel if you have to travel. And I finally said I've got to go. And I flew to where he was at and got there the night before he passed away and when he walked in, he said, Dad, I love you. And it was the only movement he had made in quite a few hours when I said that. And the brain waves on the monitor showed there was brain activity at that point, which he hadn't had a lot of. And he passed away about 10 hours later. And my son was born a little over -- about a month and a half after that and he never got to see his grandson.
GLENN: Did you --
CALLER: I'm sorry.
GLENN: Did you reconcile with him when he was in the coma, did you talk to him?
CALLER: Yes, I did. I talked to him that night and told him that, you know, I loved him and that he needed to see his grandson and he needed to make it through this and fight because I know he was a fighter. And I just wish I would have done it before because I mean, I know he heard me and I know he's up in heaven right now with the Lord fishing because he's a fisherman and a hunter, but I wish I would have done it before he was in the coma when it was the right time, not when I felt it was too late. Sorry.
GLENN: It's amazing to me how we constantly kick ourselves after we've done something stupid. You know what I mean? We do something stupid and then we try to repair it and we do the best we can, but we just never, ever let it go. Have you let it go yet?
CALLER: Yes. Most definitely. I look forward to the day when I meet him in heaven because I know he's up there with the Lord right now and I look forward to the day when I can go up to him and give him the big hug and he can hug me back because, you know, when he was in the coma, he couldn't hug me back. And I know that he knew that I was there. And my mom has even told me, he knew that you loved him and he knew that you had forgiven him. He just, he had a problem with saying he was sorry and that was just his -- he was a big burly guy, you know, the manly man type. And I reconciled. I don't have any -- I still have regrets obviously. I think I'll always live with those regrets of not doing it sooner but I mean, I've totally forgiven him for the situation and I've totally forgiven myself for the situation. I'll never forget it.
GLENN: Well, it's the mistakes along the way that if we don't allow them to crush us actually make us into better people. Jessica, I'm glad that you wrote me and I'd love to have you in the audience today. I'm going to give you the last two tickets that I have in South Carolina.
GLENN: To come see the show. You bring your husband or your mom or somebody.
CALLER: I'll bring one, too. I'll bring the girl I work with who wanted to come, also.
GLENN: God bless you.
CALLER: Thank you so much.
GLENN: Thank you for sharing the story with me. I appreciate it.
CALLER: Thank you.
GLENN: You bet. You know, I have to tell you, you know what's really, what I hear on this story is -- because I have three daughters and my wife will look at me from time to time and she will just say, "What are you thinking?" You know sometimes -- and I'm not saying that this was the situation, was or wasn't with Jessica and her dad, but sometimes, you know, guys just cannot win with daughters. I think of the things that I have said, unthinking, unknowing, just things that I've said, that I know my daughters are going to carry around with them for the rest of their life. I know, because I'm paying some of the bills for it. Therapy for the rest of their life, you know? I'm looking over at Adam. He is shaking his head like, "Yeah, I've been there, brother." It's amazing how stupid guys can be sometimes. You know what, ladies? You need us. So what are you going to do, huh? Sucks to be you.