Glenn: We all have a part to play

Glenn talks a lot about how he doesn't always know what God's plan is, but that he often finds himself in prayer and moved to do certain things - even if he doesn't know why. For over five years, he has focused on delivering news and opinion that can't be found on any other network, while also uniting and energizing libertarians and conservatives through live events and inspirational programming on TV. But most loyal viewers have heard Glenn say that a few days after Restoring Honor in 2010, he told his wife Tania that he was "standing in the wrong place".

While Glenn has been ringing the bell and sharing the news that the mainstream media refuses to tell, he also knows it's time to expand into films, music, and other projects so that he can impact the culture and reach people who have never heard the message because they aren't tuned into the news of the day. That effort, the need to keep the people who are awake focused and energized while also expanding the choir, was the focus of Wednesday's monologue.

Below is a transcript of Wednesday's monologue:

This is the network that you are building, and you are building quite a building. You really are. What you are building is going to have vast ramifications, and it’s good. I will tell you, some days I am so sick of talking about this President and the people in his administration. They’re overwhelming the system, we got it.

He’s got so many lies out there, there’s not enough time in a 24-hour day to cover all of them, and honestly even if I could cover all of them, I don’t want to spend the rest of my life doing this. Do you? I mean, don’t you just want to – all men are created equal and endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights, among these rights life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. I want to pursue the things that make me happy. How about you?

I just feel like we’re preaching to the choir, and we’ve been here for a while. And the choir is sick of it. I got it, I got it. We need some more choir. That’s what we need. We built this network, we built this network to cover the stories that no one else covers, to ask the questions that no one else asks, things like the president enrollment claims that he gave in his ridiculous speech yesterday, we had 7.1. No, he didn’t. No, he did not. Paying, the number is between 2 million and as low as 800,000. Where is the press?

Or how about this one, Mr. President, is it true you hired a socialist in the Consumer Protection Bureau? Really, a socialist? Despite the stark realities of socialism in Venezuela where they’re actually now on the streets, they’re facing food rationing, they’re being issued ID cards to track their grocery purchases. You can go and get your groceries, sure. You can’t go into a grocery store for another eight days. That’s socialism.

I get it. Do you get it? You think this guy is not a socialist? I know who he is. You know who he is. The problems persist, and somebody has to tell the truth. That’s why we call one of our main shows For the Record, because somebody has to say for the record, this is the truth. And we’ll continue to tell it here at TheBlaze. My job as I see it is multifaceted, but the longest one, the one I got off the stage in 8/28, and I went on vacation. And I said to my wife we’re standing in the wrong place.

I knew I was supposed to build something, and I was supposed to build a network and draw a crowd to get people to know there is a place for truth. The truth can be heard. You can network with other people. We’ve done that. I found out last night we now finished the month with 35 million unique visitors last month. You can play page view game all you want, but this is 35, that’s 10% of the U.S. population now last month visited TheBlaze. Those are not repeat, 35 million unique users.

That makes TheBlaze the 43rd largest website in the country. That’s ahead of news sites like FOXNews.com, CNN.com. I remember CNN, when I was at CNN, they were telling me that CNN.com was bigger than the actual network. TheBlaze is now bigger than CNN.com. It’s bigger than theNewYorkTimes.com, bigger than NBC News. It’s incredible. It’s absolutely incredible.

I’m going to fill you in because if you speak it into existence, it happens. I gave a goal to my staff of 41 million Americans read TheBlaze every month. That was my year end goal, 41 million. I will tell you that by election day, not this year, by the election, I want 75 million. So you know, that is so unheard of, that number. That would put us in the top 10 websites in the entire country, and in the top 10, Google, Facebook. That’s who you’re playing ball with.

We’ve got to get into 75 million, my real goal honestly, 100 million, dream big. My job is to expand the footprint for the truth and not to get bogged down. And I got so angry this morning when I hear all this stuff, I’m like I got it. And I know you feel the same way. But as soon as you start to feel the anger, they’ve got you. Those in power, that’s what they want.

When we are consumed by their corruption, their dysfunction, their lies, it empowers them because it hardens our hearts. It makes you go no way out, nothing left to do, just give up, close up, close in, turn in, grab your family. You need a way out. You and I both want to be more than just the fan that points to the problem and cheers for our side, and when somebody gets it wrong we say yeah, well, we told you. We don’t want to be I told you.

I don’t care about Washington, but we have to solve the problem so you and I can get and do what we’re supposed to do. Now, a big part of that solution is staying informed. I get it. I get it. But a bigger part is getting involved. This is why I told you take the 40-day and 40-night challenge. This is before 8/28, a few months before because I could feel something big happening, and I knew it. And I said we’ve got to be bigger people.

And the last line in the Declaration of Independence is with firm reliance on the protection of divine providence, we mutually pledge to each other our lives, our fortunes, and our sacred honor. And I said I want you to really live that last line. I want you to know what every word really means to you, and I want you to get down on your knees and ask a few questions.

There are four steps that I asked you to do. And millions of Americans did it. And if you’ve already done it, do it again. If you’ve done it over and over again, if you know all of this, I want you to get this book. This book, I think, is changing my life, I really do. I have been praying differently, in fact, we’ve been praying around this building. There’s a group of us that walk every afternoon at the end of our day, and we pray around this building.

And I found out early this morning that somebody else has been praying around this building that works for me, and I didn’t have any idea. He happened to be here early, early, early this morning, and somebody said to him what are you doing? He says I just feel like I should pray around this building. He didn’t know that we were praying around this building, and I felt compelled to pray around this building.

Then I read this book, and then I’m like oh crap, I really have to pray around this building. He didn’t read this book. He’d never talked to me. He didn’t know we were even doing it. He said to me just about an hour ago when I talked to him, “I felt like in prayer that I was supposed to do that. We’re supposed to do that, Glenn.” I don’t know what God is doing, I really don’t. I have no idea. You don’t know how many times I’m in this position going, “I don’t get it, it won’t work, I don’t know what you’re doing.” And every time, he says you don’t have to, just do it.

Whatever he’s doing does not revolve around me or revolve around this. It revolves around him, and we all have a part in it. This is one little piece. My piece is one little piece, and I think it will all make sense in the end. I think we’re all going to stand back and go holy cow, but being a part of it is going to change your life. It will refocus you on everything that really matters. And once you do that, once you do your part, whatever it is, you’re going to change the lives of others all around you.

And at the same time, if we can continue to grow the footprint, the size of the choir, a ripple effect across the whole world, millions of people. Five years ago, think of this, I was on stage in Washington, D.C. for that, and you were there. And we were so worried about our country. I’m just as worried as I was then. But we were begging people, I know, because I took your phone calls, begging people rise up, please, anyone, rise up and serve, isn’t there anyone with some integrity and some brains that will serve?

We were looking for the next George Washington. It’s happening. It’s happening. Mark it, declare it, it’s happening. Rand Paul, Mike Lee, Ted Cruz, the candidates that are sprouting up all across the country, people like Ben Sasse. That guy’s a good guy, Matt Bevin, unbelievable, Greg Brannon, hello?

And there’s more, and if they don’t happen to be in your district or your state, support them because those are the guys that were called. They heard the call because of you and millions of others just like you that took a stand in life and said you know what, this is what we need in this country. And they heard the call, and now they’re there. Now’s not the time to retreat or say I’m tired. Now’s the time to double down.

Saturday, I’m going to FreePAC. I am really tired, I’m tired of traveling. I was on the plane on Sunday, and I said I can’t take travel anymore. I’d much rather be with my family at home, and I know you feel the same way. We are not different. I love my children, and I love my family. And I’ve never, ever been in this position in my whole life where I’ve wanted to spend time with all of my children and my wife more than I do right now.

But we’ve got to stay in the game because we are close. These elections this fall really matter. So we’ve got to buckle down, work hard, get into the ground game, promote from within, and increase the ranks of the choir. ObamaCare is going to collapse on its own weight, and before things get better, understand, it’s going to get much, much worse.

On Sunday, there was an economist, his name is Martin Armstrong, he posted an article about civil unrest. He warned governments to wake up. He said wake up, “for we are on the brink of a major convergence between both the cycle of civil unrest, civil war & revolution an international war.” He said he’s never seen anything like this. The cycle has not been like this, there’s a cycle to war, he said it’s not been like this since the 1700s.

And he said democracies, Democratic republics, you’re in trouble. It’s not just the Communist dictators because your people have sold you out too. You know it, you feel it. In fact, you know this song by heart. I mean, how many times have we sung the song that he was just singing? For years, for years – the protest, cascade, sweep the Middle East, destabilize Europe and the rest of the world to work together against Israel, against capitalism, and together overturn stability. That’s it.

And the time is here, and the time for us now to go outside the walls because the harvest in the field is white. It’s going to be tough, but it’s an opportunity to show people the truth and get new people on board. Last week, I went to Los Angeles. I was working on some projects because we’re going to go into the film business. I don’t know how, I don’t have the money, but we’re going into the film business. And so I went out to Los Angeles.

This is me on the Paramount set, and we were looking how they were building sets and how they use their space. And after this, I went to speak at the Friends of Abe in Hollywood. What an incredible room of talented people that was, I mean, mind boggling. There are so many in Hollywood that have reached out to me since. I’ve never done this before, I think there were, well, there were several hundred people there, and I just gave out my private e-mail address and said here, you guys can have my e-mail address.

And I can’t tell you how many people have reached out to me wanting to do something to impact the culture. And I don’t mean with me, per se. I mean, they’re doing it themselves. But that’s where we need to be, and I don’t mean in Hollywood. I mean where people actually live. The blown opportunity for Hollywood with Noah is staggering. I have a list on my desk, it is a mile long of projects, shows, television shows, news programs, films, stage, music, you name it, everything. It’s a mile long, and none of those things have anything to do with President Obama and his stupid fake healthcare numbers because that’s going to come crashing down. What comes after?

Don’t be anywhere near the crash site when it comes down. Don’t get bogged down in the mud. We have to lift ourselves and each other out and show them the light, and I don’t mean light in the PC sense. There is something huge at play here, and it’s bigger than the Republicans and the Democrats. It’s bigger than money. It’s bigger than jobs. It’s bigger than you. It’s bigger than me. And I know it’s true because look at how Hollywood is self-destructing on Noah, and meanwhile, there’s two God films out that are not coming through the Hollywood system.

One is God’s Not Dead, which is huge. I haven’t seen it yet, but I hear great things about it, and it’s gigantic. And the other one is Heaven is For Real. Heaven is For Real is a movie from Sony. I watched this last night. It’s great, and it’s about a kid, it’s from a bestseller. That kid doesn’t die on the table. He has his appendix burst, and he almost dies, but he sees heaven. And his dad believes him, wants to believe him, but isn’t sure because he’s a preacher, and what he’s saying isn’t quite right, isn’t quite lining up. And the kid has no business knowing this. You’re four, what are you talking about?

And I’m watching this movie, and it’s speaking to me in a whole different way because that movie is saying exactly what I heard my dad say as he died, his last words, things my father would never say. My father’s last words were, “Okay, I understand. I’m ready. Take me with you.” My dad wasn’t that guy. And as I’m watching this last night, I say to my kids, this is the same story.

Now, why is God telling that kid, why did that happen with my dad? I think it’s for you. I’m supposed to tell you there is a God, there is a heaven, there is a plan. He’s got it under control. Have you always had everything you’ve ever needed? Even in your worst times, have you had everything you needed? Yes. You will again, no matter what comes our way.

The truth is there is a plan. You have a purpose, and you’ve got to get to it. I don’t know what it is, but he’s going to help you carry out that purpose. Just do what he says. At the end of the day, if we just remember that the best farmer in the world is still at the mercy of God for weather and rain, not too much sun but some sun, not too much rain but some rain, the best fisherman in the world doesn’t control the seas. We are nothing when we stop doing the things he’s telling us to do. We’re nothing without him. But with him and with each other, we’re unstoppable.

Editor's Note: Glenn spoke more about the idea of expanding the choir in Wednesday's morning meeting.

My fellow supporters,

It is with a heavy heart that I must make a sad announcement today. The time has come to press pause on the dream of Beto for president. It's not the end of the Beto dream. It's just pressing pause for a while, like pausing a Foss CD. The dream will keep right on spinning, until we return to it and press play again. I mean, look at Bernie Sanders. That guy's almost twice my age and he's still running for president. That means you can look forward to Beto running for office for decades to come. I have found there is tremendous joy and freedom in running for office and never winning. All the travel, Vanity Fair cover stories, food and free beer, with none of the hassle or responsibility of having an actual job in elected office (or any job at all). It's really great.

With the exception of myself, no one has supported Beto more faithfully and true than you, the fans. I'd also like to thank my wife Amy for continually raising our children so that I can travel this great land in my never-ending quest to find myself (and also to connect with you, the fans). From attending my very hip and not-at-all contrived jogging town halls, to slapping those trendy Beto bumper stickers on your hybrid-SUVs, to steadying tables all over America so I could jump on top of them and yell and jab the air, to clicking "like" on all those Facebook videos of my dentist visits – you perpetuated this Beto dream way longer than it had any right to be perpetuated.

So, I'm sure you're now wondering – what's next for Beto?

Other than pursuing my career as a solo rock recording artist, I believe the best way I can serve America and bring true justice to this great land of ours is by stealing from the rich and giving to those who fall in the sweet spot on the intersectionality charts. Except I won't steal from my billionaire father-in-law, only because getting my family cut out of the will would not be in America's best interest. You need a Beto who is independently wealthy via his wife and so do I. Plus, as you know by now, from following the 2020 presidential campaign so closely, the only acceptable status quo in America is leaving the wealth of Progressive elites alone. Everyone else's wealth is fair game, including the middle class. It's the right thing to do.

You need a Beto who is independently wealthy via his wife and so do I.

Therefore, from this day forward I will henceforth be known as Beto Hood. You will be able to join the cause by purchasing official Beto Hood merch soon at Beto Hood dot com. Together, with my band of merry men, who will be known as "merry non-binaries", we will roam the land, righting all the wrongs and bringing about all the social justice that Donald Trump refuses to let you have.

Beto Hood and his Merry Non-Binaries will live on the road. And in the woods (in eco-friendly, fully sustainable treehouse yurts). And in the shadows. We will skateboard and learn archery and rappelling. We will become proficient in hand-to-hand combat. We will become experts in all weaponry except guns, since guns are the evilest weapons. We will care for all the animals of the forest. You already know my affinity for squirrels. Not only will we continue to rescue all the orphan squirrels, we will train them in petty thievery and nimble sabotage. We will affix tiny helmets on them, fitted with tiny Go Pro cameras to live stream their heroic exploits on Facebook. Side note: my colonoscopy next week will also be live streamed on Facebook and available to rent on iTunes.

Using the skills I honed as a college graduate scaling the gates of UTEP, Beto Hood and his Merry Non-Binaries will scale the gates of America's richest and steal from their grotesque wealth. Jewelry, high-end electronics, precious antiques, art, women's shoes – nothing of value will be off-limits. Drawing on my experience while my father was a county judge, we will live above the law. It will be dangerous work, the Lord's work as some people say. But totally worth the risk.

Also, we will not wait for Constitutional amendments nor judicial overreach to get rid of America's AR-15s. We will steal those too. One by one. Using very large versions of those stretchy sticky hands that come in cereal boxes, we will literally be able to snatch these vile guns right out from under the noses of the monsters who own them. Then, with our literal mountain of confiscated AR-15s, we will melt them down and use the metal to build a flotilla of sturdy watercraft, called Beto Boats (trademark pending). Families will be able to use these Beto Boats to save themselves and others when the rising waters of climate change overtake our cities in exactly ten years.

Who needs the presidency? I have big, bold plans for a bright future as an outlaw hero.

Who needs the presidency? I have big, bold plans for a bright future as an outlaw hero. So, don't cry for me, America. Beto will be just fine. Dropping out of this race is nothing that another months-long, head-clearing road trip won't cure. And after that, I'll start shopping for some tights.



[NOTE: The preceding Memo was a parody written by MRA writer Nathan Nipper – not Beto O'Rourke.]

Ryan: Making of an Ant Queen

Photo by Kevin Ryan

The embattled, Nobel-Peace-Prize-winning author Liu Xiaobo wrote that "Life is priceless even to an ant."

An ant colony can only survive for a few months after the death of its queen. On average, queens live 10 to 15 years. Some, up to 30 years, one of the longest insect lifespans, hidden deep within the colony, protected, unable to use her wings because she's a little bigger than she used to be.

Plus she's very busy.

The majority of ants are female. Wingless, sterile worker ants. They build nests, they forage, they hunt.

Theirs is a far briefer life than the queen's, ranging from a few weeks up to a year. But they see more of the outside world than any other ant.

The bigger they are, the farther they travel. And they release pheromones along the way so that they have a trail home.
Drones — winged male ants whose primary function in life is to mate with the queen — die after mating and rarely make it out of the colony.

Then, there are the soldier ants. They protect the colony and attack.

To quote philosopher Bertrand Russell, "Ants and savages put strangers to death."

They go on raids.

The attacking colony rarely loses, so most colonies flee as soon as an invasion begins. But they sometimes remain and fight.
Ants on both sides of the battle die in droves.

Henry David Thoreau describes an ant battle in Walden: "On every side they were engaged in deadly combat, yet without any noise that I could hear, and human soldiers never fought so resolutely."

If the attackers succeed in overtaking a colony, they pillage the eggs. Some are eaten, fed to larvae. But others become victims of slave raiding. Meaning that the victors return home with their enemy's unborn, feed them, nurse them. Then, when the eggs hatch, the victors force them into slavery.

Often, the slaves even develop an allegiance to the colony which ransacked their home and enslaved them. They'll even help raid other colonies and either die pointlessly or help with the seizure of the next generation of slaves.

Sometimes, however, the slave ants rebel.

In the words of Persian poet Saadi, "Ants, fighting together, will vanquish the lion."

Flying ants, both male and female, leave the colony to form another colony. Once they find a suitable place, the males's wings fall off and they mate to their death. Then one or more of the females becomes queen.

*

It felt odd, any time I sat with a roomful of media, a few hundred journalists from all over the world, as they simultaneously, silently, decided "Yep, that's newsworthy. We should hammer that."

It wasn't like everyone turned to each other and said, "Let's agree on the narrative."

It was an energy.

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Like in Houston, at the third Democratic Debate, after Biden misused the word "record player," you could hear chatter spread through the room, people muttering the words "records" and "record player."

In Houston, the media watched the debate from a gymnasium around the corner from the auditorium. So I could contrast the crowd's reactions with the media's reactions.

Nearly every time, there was a disparity between the two. The media were more relaxed — during the debate at least. The audience enjoyed any mentions of identity issues. There were a lot. But the media barely reacted at all.

This was a good thing, probably.

*

It's impressive to see how politicians force their stump speeches into a new form, depending on the context. How they say it like an epiphany.

That night brought the opposite for the ever-fledgling Kamala Harris. I could not believe it. Was this the same woman who'd made Iowa hers, just a little over a month ago?

All night, she was so loyal to the tactic she'd premeditated that she didn't realize it wasn't working, like she kept putting on a puppet show on some busy sidewalk.

At one point, she declared, proudly, "We're not talking about Donald Trump enough."

The most talked-about man in the world, perhaps in our country's history.

In five weeks, she became an entirely different candidate. Her latest version resembled a Xanax-fueled stepmom. It was like she was transforming into Joe Biden.

She kept laughing at her own jokes. And the entire media room cringed every time.

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Amy Klobuchar's pre-formed jokes and half-zany dad jokes fell short every time, too. Most of the media saw Klobuchar's long rants as a chance to chat with a neighbor or jet off to the nearest bathroom, which was likely a locker-room full of plastic flight containers and padded camera cases and journalists who curse like sailors.

During the debate, the press was stoic. So if a candidate got a reaction from them, it carried a certain authenticity.

They laughed at things that the audience ignored or disliked or didn't notice. In part because the audience didn't do a whole lot of laughing. But the media laughed like professionals laugh. In-jokey and staid yet ready for anything unexpected.

They loved it when Booker said the thing about "Let me translate that to Spanish … 'No'." And Yang's opening handclaps. As well as Pete Buttigieg's reaction to Yang's raffle.

The biggest laugh of the night in the media center, surprisingly, was when Yang said, "I am Asian, so I know a lot of doctors."

*

Early scientists believed that ants adhere to a complicated hierarchy, which biologist E O Wilson compared to the Hindu caste system. The idea was, ants and humans have a lot in common, and ants belong to a society divided by class and determined by labor.

In the Wealth of Nations, father of capitalism Adam Smith wrote: "It is the great multiplication of the productions of all the different arts, in consequence of the division of labour, which occasions, in a well-governed society, that universal opulence which extends itself to the lowest ranks of the people."

Ants have been organized into colonized societies since the Cretaceous Period, 140 million years ago, when dinosaurs still dominated the Earth. All of that changed 74 million years later. Which was about 66 million years ago. When a comet slammed into what is now the Yucatan Peninsula, resulting in the KT mass extinction.

80 percent of all plants and animals died. The ash and dust and debris polluted the air, blocked the sunlight, transforming the Earth into a dark, frozen wasteland full of asthma.

Insects, carrion-eaters, and omnivores all survived. Any purely carnivorous animals starved to death, while mammals and birds fed on insects and worms until the earth repopulated itself with more animals that could be eaten.

The K-T Mass Extinction ushered in a new era of life. Species that had lived in constant retreat from predators were suddenly able to form more elaborate purposes.

After these lifeforms thrived for tens of millions of years, certain mammals started to become vaguely humanlike.
Early humans popped up about 300,000 years ago.

Meaning, ants have existed for 140 million years, which is 139.7 million years longer than humans.

For reference, if you counted to 300,000, it would take you roughly three-in-a-half days. To get to 140 million would take about four-and-a-half years.

Humans only began developing language about 100,000 years ago.

Yet we're the ones with libraries and governments and ABBA and iPhones. What did ants have? Other people's sugar?

*

Before the debate, I wandered out of the gymnasium and onto bustling sidewalks with makeshift security fencing on each side. And hopped over the massive yellow tubes that belonged in E.T. and pumped cold air into the building. Past dozens of police and security, through an elaborate weave of temporary checkpoints and wires bigger than a fire hose.

On the street, I passed a group of six-or-so teenagers flipping DELANEY signs around like those cardboard "WE BUY GOLD" banners which actual people bob around while dressed as Elvis or Lady Liberty or a Banana.

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The sun cast a delightful orange over Houston, glitter in the humid air.

Those kids were having a blast with those signs. Laughing so hard they had to stop occasionally and slap their legs.

On the other side of the fence, some of the most powerful people in the world were readying for battle, and these kids could not have cared less.

*

The protestors had gathered just outside the gates of the campus entrance.

Far as I could tell, it was me and no other journalists present. The rest of the media were in the gymnasium, preparing for the debate or networking or already on-air. Once they got into the media center they stayed put. For many reasons, I assume.
The air collapsed under a wave of heat unique to Houston.

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Gnarled blockades served as borders on both sides of the street. Locked into steel fencing, flanked by rows of police cars with their lights on but their sirens off.

Worse than the humidity, and more intense, was the energy bouncing out of the protestors on Cleburne Street. The opposite of suction energy, shoving out with tension and panic and elation.

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Curtis Mayfield's "Move on Up" blared from a Bluetooth speaker. I envisioned a slow zoom from above, beginning with the top of my head and rising, up and up and up. Drawing in the greater scene. Up past Trump's message-board plane. A panorama of city, then county, then state, capturing the topography and nuance of each snapshot of nature.

The higher the camera rose, the more I resembled an ant. One more wingless worker or obedient soldier rushing from place to place on a mission.

And when you got far enough above, you saw the colony that each of us belongs to.

Then it shrank like a passing bobsled, and Earth itself resembled an ant.

The scale of it is daunting.

For thousands of years the sky has filled humans with romance and humility and wonder. A restive impulse that strikes when we gaze up at the moon, the stars, the galaxy, the quiet.

But at ground level, I was a man in the throes of a great human drama. And my job was to document it as neutrally as possible.

The 120-odd protestors on the south side of the street spilled onto the sidewalk and into a lawn, and they chanted as the Trump plane groaned overhead.

They were crowded together, and they were all fighting for different causes. Lots of contradictions under the same banner.
Next to a group of Beto supporters with pro-choice t-shirts, several women chanted

We.
Want.
A pro-life.
Dem.

Chaos itself occupied the south side of the street. The protestors weren't sure how to handle it. So they chanted and sang and probed for the problem. Like so many tiny creatures hauling an orange slice.

Across the street, facing that horde of supporters, two men gripped pro-life signs.

They were the counter-protestors. Their barricade was far wider than needed. The grass around them looked sad, like the trail a dog makes along the fence when it wants to escape.

Behind the two counter-protestors, a mini-bus covered with photos of aborted babies, tangled fetuses, severed and indistinguishable chunks.

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I squinted and gasped and felt downright unwell.

Two days earlier, my wife and I found out that she was pregnant with our first child.

At the very moment I stared at images of tiny human shapes contorted and grey, our baby was the size of a pea.
A few weeks later, we'd see its heartbeat pulsing like a strobe.

I'm not making a statement on abortion. That's not my job as a journalist.

It's more my admiration for the impeccable depth of life. The timing. How messages and symbols confront us all the time, with unmatchable creativity.

Because there I was, literally in the middle of two opposing factions. Again. In the divide. Tangled into so many dichotomies. Life and death. Freedom and oppression. Order and chaos. Activity and stagnation. Creation and loss. Art and nature.

And I had once again remained in the middle.

This brought me tremendous satisfaction. It signified personal and journalistic success.

It was also a bit ridiculous.

As a reporter, I never wanted to pick a side. I already had a side. My side was America, and Ireland. My side was humanity.

My side was life.

New installments of this series come out every Monday and Thursday morning. Check out my Twitter or email me at kryan@mercurystudios.com

"Silence in the face of evil is itself evil: God will not hold us guiltless. Not to speak is to speak.Not to act is to act."
― Dietrich Bonhoeffer

The cost of discipleship can be daunting and few people are willing to sacrifice and stand in the face of evil to do what they know God is asking of them. The "Bonhoeffer Angel Award" is awarded to someone with the vision and courage to act when others only talk, to dig in and listen to the whisperings of the spirit when others turn a deaf ear. It is only fitting the inaugural award go to the visionary founder of Mercury One, Glenn Beck.

The award was presented by the Board President of Mercury One, David Barton and CEO of the Nazarene Fund, Tim Ballard. There was a touching video tribute as well including the likes of Penn Jillette, Senators Mike Lee, Ted Cruz and Joe Liberman, Congressman Loui Gohmert and Rabbi Daniel Lappin.

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE:

Glenn will be hosting the annual Operation Underground Railroad gala Saturday, November 2nd with keynote speaker Tim Ballard. If you are able to join us, tickets are still available and donations of all sizes are welcome.

Summer is ending and fall is in the air. Before you know it, Christmas will be here, a time when much of the world unites to celebrate the love of family, the generosity of the human spirit, and the birth of the Christ-child in Bethlehem.

For one night only at the Kingsbury Hall in Salt Lake City, on December 7th, join internationally-acclaimed radio host and storyteller Glenn Beck as he walks you through tales of Christmas in the way that only he can. There will be laughs, and there might be a few tears. But at the end of the night, you'll leave with a warm feeling in your heart and a smile on your face.

Reconnect to the true spirit of Christmas with Glenn Beck, in a storytelling tour de force that you won't soon forget.

Get tickets and learn more about the event here.

The general sale period will be Friday, August 16 at 10:00 AM MDT. Stay tuned to for updates. We look forward to sharing in the Christmas spirit with you!