'That Has Haunted Me' - Glenn Reveals His Biggest Personal Regret Following 9/11

Glenn shared a deeply personal regret on radio Thursday, something he's never even told his wife.

"The most personally embarrassing thing I have done since my baptism, when I promised I wouldn't be the man I used to be, came after 9/11," Glenn said.

On 9/13, just days after the devastation of 9/11, Glenn attended a meeting.

"I had a contract to do a national show, but Clear Channel, they couldn't get a hold of the guys in New York. The company was running almost locally, and the people in New York had no time to make any decisions whatsoever," Glenn recalled.

They decided to put Glenn on the air with another host who took a different approach to 9/11.

"I was speaking to the heart; he was speaking to the head. It might have been a good show, but it was not the show that I would have done. And it was very, very frustrating because it's not what I believe the country needed. I think the country needed a hug," Glenn said.

The program director wanted to repeat the show format for the next several weeks while Glenn wanted to go solo.

"I believed in that direction so strongly, and they kept going back and forth. And everybody was calm, except me. I think it was the first time Jeffy ever heard me swear," Glenn said.

He continued.

"I said, 'I don't care what the F you put on the air, but it's not going to be me. And I don't care what it is, but I am not participating in this anymore. And get somebody on the phone that understands what the hell they're doing.' And I remember the program director looked at me in horror and said, 'Do you realize why we can't get them on the phone? Do you know what it's like on the streets of New York?'" Glenn said.

After saying a few more foul things, Glenn walked out of the room.

"That has haunted me. And the reason why it happened --- and I went back and apologized to everybody --- but the reason why it happened is because all of us were at the ultimate level of stress. The pinnacle of stress," Glenn said.

The last couple of years, Glenn has experienced that same kind stress.

"I told my wife six months ago, 'Honey, I'm going to quit. I can't do it anymore. I can't take the stress anymore. My body can't take the stress anymore.' I'm at the pinnacle of my stress. Has anybody noticed that my language has gotten much worse in the last year and a half? I'm swearing now. Not all the time, but I don't usually swear," Glenn said.

Because of that stress, he's been transported back to that day on 9/13 several times --- and it's changed his behavior and course of action.

"It takes a lot of pressure on me before my walls start to get shaky. That's not good enough. At least for me. That's not good enough. I want to be the man who can be in the battlefield and rock solid. Rock solid. I am not that guy. And you know that from listening to me. Because you've heard me snap on the air. I don't like it," Glenn said.

On those days, Glenn thinks of 9/13 and the progress he still wants to make --- especially considering the contentious election we're having.

"In times of ultimate stress, the best thing we can do for each other is understand," Glenn said. "Whatever is going to happen is going to happen. We need to be the strongest, most principled people we can possibly be and hold things together as they are flying apart."

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The current riots and movement to erase America's history are exactly in line with the New York Times' "1619 Project," which argues that America was rotten at its beginning, and that slavery and systemic racism are the roots of everything from capitalism to our lack of universal health care.

On this week's Wednesday night special, Glenn Beck exposed the true intent of the "1619 Project" and its creator, who justifies remaking America into a Marxist society. This clever lie is disguised as history, and it has already infiltrated our schools.

"The '1619 Project' desperately wants to pass itself off as legitimate history, but it totally kneecaps itself by ignoring so much of the American story. There's no mention of any black Americans who succeeded in spite of slavery, due to the free market capitalist system. In the 1619 Project's effort to take down America, black success stories are not allowed. Because they don't fit with the narrative. The role of white Americans in abolishing slavery doesn't fit the narrative either," Glenn said.

"The agenda is not ultimately about history," he added. "It's just yet another vehicle in the fleet now driven by elites in America toward socialism."

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Acclaimed environmentalist and author of "Apocalypse Never" Michael Shellenberger joined Glenn Beck on the radio program Wednesday to warn us about the true goals and effects of climate alarmism: It's become a "secular religion" that lowers standards of living in developed countries, holds developing countries back, and has environmental progress "exactly wrong."

Michael is a Time "Hero of the Environment," Green Book Award winner, and the founder and president of Environmental Progress. He has been called a "environmental guru," "climate guru," "North America's leading public intellectual on clean energy," and "high priest" of the environmental humanist movement for his writings and TED talks, which have been viewed more than 5 million times. But when Michael penned a stunning article in Forbes saying, "On Behalf of Environmentalists, I Apologize for the Climate Scare", the article was pulled just a few hours later. (Read more here.)

On the show, Micheal talked about how environmental alarmism has overtaken scientific fact, leading to a number of unfortunate consequences. He said one of the problems is that rich nations are blocking poor nations from being able to industrialize. Instead, they are seeking to make poverty sustainable, rather than to make poverty history.

"As a cultural anthropologist, I've been traveling to poorer countries and interviewing small farmers for over 30 years. And, obviously there are a lot of causes why countries are poor, but there's no reason we should be helping them to stay poor," Michael said. "A few years ago, there was a movement to make poverty history ... [but] it got taken over by the climate alarmist movement, which has been focused on depriving poor countries, not just of fossil fuels they need to develop, but also the large hydroelectric dams."

He offered the example of the Congo, one of the poorest countries in the world. The Congo has been denied the resources needed to build large hydroelectric dams, which are absolutely essential to pull people out of poverty. And one of the main groups preventing poor countries from the gaining financing they need to to build dams is based in Berkeley, California — a city that gets its electricity from hydroelectric dams.

"It's just unconscionable ... there are major groups, including the Sierra Club, that support efforts to deprive poor countries of energy. And, honestly, they've taken over the World Bank [which] used to fund the basics of development: roads, electricity, sewage systems, flood control, dams," Micheal said.

"Environmentalism, apocalyptic environmentalism in particular, has become the dominant religion of supposedly secular people in the West. So, you know, it's people at the United Nations. It's people that are in very powerful positions who are trying to impose 'nature's order' on societies," he continued. "And, of course, the problem is that nobody can figure out what nature is, and what it's not. That's not a particular good basis for organizing your economy."

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Dr. Voddie Baucham, Dean of Theology at African Christian University in Lusaka, Zambia, joined Glenn Beck on the radio program to explain why he agrees with Vice President Mike Pence's refusal to say the phrase "Black Lives Matter."

Baucham, who recently drew national attention when his sermon titled "Ethnic Gnosticism" resurfaced online, said the phrase has been trademarked by a dangerous, violent, Marxist movement that doesn't care about black lives except to use them as political pawns.

"We have to separate this movement from the issues," Baucham warned. "I know that [Black Lives Matter] is a phrase that is part of an organization. It is a trademark phrase. And it's a phrase designed to use black people.

"That phrase dehumanizes black people, because it makes them pawns in a game that has nothing whatsoever to do with black people and their dignity. And has everything to do with a divisive agenda that is bigger than black people. That's why I'm not going to use that phrase, because I love black people. I love being black."

Baucham warned that Black Lives Matter -- a radical Marxist movement -- is using black people and communities to push a dangerous and divisive narrative. He encouraged Americans to educate themselves on the organization's agenda and belief statement.

"This movement is dangerous. This movement is vicious. And this movement uses black people," he emphasized. "And so if I'm really concerned about issues in the black community -- and I am -- then I have to refuse, and I have to repudiate that organization. Because they stand against that for which I am advocating."

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