'That Has Haunted Me' - Glenn Reveals His Biggest Personal Regret Following 9/11

Glenn shared a deeply personal regret on radio Thursday, something he's never even told his wife.

"The most personally embarrassing thing I have done since my baptism, when I promised I wouldn't be the man I used to be, came after 9/11," Glenn said.

On 9/13, just days after the devastation of 9/11, Glenn attended a meeting.

"I had a contract to do a national show, but Clear Channel, they couldn't get a hold of the guys in New York. The company was running almost locally, and the people in New York had no time to make any decisions whatsoever," Glenn recalled.

They decided to put Glenn on the air with another host who took a different approach to 9/11.

"I was speaking to the heart; he was speaking to the head. It might have been a good show, but it was not the show that I would have done. And it was very, very frustrating because it's not what I believe the country needed. I think the country needed a hug," Glenn said.

The program director wanted to repeat the show format for the next several weeks while Glenn wanted to go solo.

"I believed in that direction so strongly, and they kept going back and forth. And everybody was calm, except me. I think it was the first time Jeffy ever heard me swear," Glenn said.

He continued.

"I said, 'I don't care what the F you put on the air, but it's not going to be me. And I don't care what it is, but I am not participating in this anymore. And get somebody on the phone that understands what the hell they're doing.' And I remember the program director looked at me in horror and said, 'Do you realize why we can't get them on the phone? Do you know what it's like on the streets of New York?'" Glenn said.

After saying a few more foul things, Glenn walked out of the room.

"That has haunted me. And the reason why it happened --- and I went back and apologized to everybody --- but the reason why it happened is because all of us were at the ultimate level of stress. The pinnacle of stress," Glenn said.

The last couple of years, Glenn has experienced that same kind stress.

"I told my wife six months ago, 'Honey, I'm going to quit. I can't do it anymore. I can't take the stress anymore. My body can't take the stress anymore.' I'm at the pinnacle of my stress. Has anybody noticed that my language has gotten much worse in the last year and a half? I'm swearing now. Not all the time, but I don't usually swear," Glenn said.

Because of that stress, he's been transported back to that day on 9/13 several times --- and it's changed his behavior and course of action.

"It takes a lot of pressure on me before my walls start to get shaky. That's not good enough. At least for me. That's not good enough. I want to be the man who can be in the battlefield and rock solid. Rock solid. I am not that guy. And you know that from listening to me. Because you've heard me snap on the air. I don't like it," Glenn said.

On those days, Glenn thinks of 9/13 and the progress he still wants to make --- especially considering the contentious election we're having.

"In times of ultimate stress, the best thing we can do for each other is understand," Glenn said. "Whatever is going to happen is going to happen. We need to be the strongest, most principled people we can possibly be and hold things together as they are flying apart."

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On Monday's episode of "The Glenn Beck Radio Program," Glenn opened up about the tragic death of his brother-in-law, Vincent Colonna Jr., who passed away unexpectedly on April 5. He also shared some of the important thoughts and insights he's learned through the grieving process.

"Last Monday, I was sitting in this chair ... the two-minute warning comes and Stu said to me, 'You ready for the show?'' ... And that's when my wife [Tania] came to the door of the studio here at our house and said, 'I...' and she held the phone up. And then she collapsed on the floor in tears," Glenn began. "Tania's brother had passed. To say this was a shock, is an understatement."

Glenn described his brother-in-law as having "a servant's spirit."

"He was always the guy who lit up the room. He was always the guy helping others. He would never stop, because he was always helping others," Glenn said of Vincent. "He was on the school board. He was a little league coach. He was the soccer coach. He helped build the church. He took care of the lawn of the church. He was constantly doing things, raising money for charity, working over here, helping to organize this. But he was never the guy in the spotlight. He was just the guy doing it, and you had no idea how much he had done because he never talked about it.

"We also didn't know how much mental anguish he was in because he never talked about it. And last Monday morning, after spending Easter with the family ... he killed himself. This is now the third family member of mine that has gone through this. And I keep seeing it play out over and over and over again, in exactly the same way."

Glenn described his thoughts as he, Tania, and her family struggled to come to grips with the devastating loss.

"I learned some really important things as I was watching this wake. I'm seeing these people from all walks of life ... the people that were there, were there because [Vince] made a difference in their life. He was a true servant. As I'm watching this, all that kept going through my mind was, 'by their fruits, ye shall know them.' The fruits of his labor were on display. He was a servant all the time. All the time ... he found a way to love everybody.

"There are two great commandments: Love God with all your heart and mind and soul. And love your neighbor. So those two great commandments boil down to: Love truth. Because that's what God is," Glenn said.

"Love thy neighbor. That's where joy comes from. The opposite of joy is despair, and that is the complete absence of hope ... and how do you find joy? You find joy by rooting yourself in the truth. Even if that's a truth you don't want to accept. Accept the truth," he added. "But we have to stop saying that there's nothing we can do. What are we going to do? Well, here's the first thing: stop living a lie."

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After imprisoning a pastor for refusing to follow COVID-19 restrictions, Canadian officials barricaded his church. And when some church members retaliated by tearing down part of the fence, Canadian Mounties arrived in riot gear.

Rebel News Founder Ezra Levant joined Glenn Beck on the radio program to give his insight on the crazy situation. He described the new, armed police presence surrounding GraceLife Church in Edmonton, Alberta, and how it not only encouraged hundreds of protesters to stand with the church in support but forced congregation members underground to worship as well.

What's happening is eerily similar to what occurs everyday in China, Levant says, and it must stop. Who would have thought this type of tyranny would be so close to home?

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Enough prayers? Why is supposed Catholic Joe Biden suggesting that Congress ought to stop praying for after someone commits acts of gun violence?

On Friday, Stu Burguiere and Pat Gray filled in for Glenn and discussed President Joe Biden's remarks during his speech on gun control. "Enough prayers. Time for some action," Biden said. Stu and Pat were surprised how dismissive Biden appeared to be on the idea of prayer.

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Just days after Canadian pastor James Coates was released from prison for refusing to bow to COVID-19 lockdown restrictions, several police officers showed up at another church to ensure restrictions were being followed. But Polish pastor Artur Pawlowski of the Cave of Adullam Church in Alberta, Canada, knew his rights, telling the cops not to come back until they had a warrant in hand.

Filling in for Glenn Beck on the radio program this week, Pat Gray and Stu Burguiere played a video of the interaction.

"Please get out. Please get out of this property immediately. Get out!" Pawlowski can be heard yelling at the six officers who entered his church.

"Out! Out! Out! Get out of this property immediately until you come back with a warrant," he continued. "Go out and don't come back. I don't want to talk to you. You Nazis, Gestapo is not allowed here! ... Nazis are not welcome here! Do not come back you Nazi psychopaths. Unbelievable sick, evil people. Intimidating people in a church during the Passover! You Gestapo, Nazi, communist fascists! Don't you dare come back here!"

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